Almost Beautiful

I have been thinking lately about my family history and why we are where we are today. I'm going to spent some time thinking about what I want to write about, then I will start the post soon. I'm sorry that I haven't been keeping up with my blogs. I'm actually new to this. =) Thank you for taking your time to read what God has been doing in my life and my journey. God bless you, my friend.  Spent some time looking into the beautiful sky.  Although with pain and sorrows, when you look into the sky, don't you just wanna smile. You are still breathing. You are still alive. There is still this "beauty" that lives around us that reminds us that life is still beautiful, despite all the flaws that have stain our eyes.  Let's move like a cloud that is free and surrounded by the blue sky that shines joy.

I love Life and God . Today. I miss Him. I know that He is the only one that I desire and want. I feel empty inside. I know that I can't go on without Him. I know that this is what I want the most . I don't know how I would go on like I didn't even care, or how I breath like I didn't belong to Him. I'd sit in my living room in the silence, and just ponder away. Ponder how I keep living this life, " like this " thinking about how empty I feel and how desperate I am in need of His grace. I am so vulnerable , yet I stand so strong . I am so weak , yet I boast in my strength . I need you to carry me, Lord. Hold me through this, and lift me up. I need your Love and Mercy. I need Him. I want Him. I've been listening to a song lately. "Remind me who I am" by Jason Gray. Sometimes when I'm struggling , I always think about this song, and I think about who I am to God, and why I am here in this situation. When I lose My...