Niam thiab Txiv

Sometimes, I wonder my life wouldn't be so complicated, if you guys were still here.
But, that's only wishful thinking.
Would you guys be proud of me of where I am right now? I hope so. I've done it without you guys and I'm sure I will be fine till the very end. I try not to think too much about you guys, but once in a while your faces appear in my mind, then I have no choice, but to let it sink in again.
As much as my heart hurts when I think about you guys, you guys are also my motivation to keep going and never give up. You guys have no idea how much damaged you've left, but we are stronger than before. You can call it a blessing in disguise.

I will never let myself get to the point of "no return".
But, as much as I hate to say it, I miss you guys.
I'll become a great nurse one day and visit you guys shortly.

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